Dear June: a letter

June.

365 days ago, I was in the midst of having to make some of the most important decisions in my life. I was receiving so much revelation from God, and it was coming to the time where I had to make some choices. Choices that would be life or death, and I thank God I can type this letter today, with a smile on my face. 

The content that I have published this month was heavy indeed, and I intend to stay on track. I have been learning lots from others and just...listening. It is so easy for me to turn on the mic and speak, but I have been enjoying just listening and learning from others. I have been finishing up on books, and just gorging myself with more information for the next chapter of my life. God has given me the green light to do some things that I am excited to begin, so I intend to be really successful this month.

I have came into some wonderful siblings in Christ lately. They help me to pray when I have no energy, and they are always rooting for me on the backend. I am so incredibly grateful for them, as being on the journey of purpose can get lonely.

I mentioned to a friend of mine this month that I feel like I am losing my humanity. I am gradually disconnecting myself from the world. Sometimes it becomes incredibly hard to press on, as I am a person with lots of responsibilities, due to nature of my profession and things I do outside of it. I am also getting to a mental point where I sometimes feel a bit isolated. There are people who are giving in and giving up, and its hard to focus when you can hear the echoes of everything because you are the only one in the room sometimes. I am learning something in this season of my life for sure. 

I finished up the book on dreams, and am in the process of opening up a book that discusses spiritual warfare. To be quite frank, I AM IN A WAR. I have weapons and tools all around me, I just need to muster up the energy to use them. I know that a strategy that the enemy employs in my case is to attempt to make me constantly overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with deadlines, expectations, people management, and trying to stay positive when everything is being hurdled at you. It can be really draining and when the sun has settled, no energy is left to fight. So I am brushing up on any and every tactic to be better prepared. I owe it to my present and my future, and most importantly to God and my advocate, Jesus Christ. 

June also marks an important milestone for me. It was around this time last year, I chose me. And I thank God every day for giving me the courage to stand up for the underdog--me. 

So cheers to May and I welcome June with open arms. This month will be a month of smiles, reminders that I matter, and a month of giving more compassion to myself and others. 

Not perfect by any means, but that is the beauty of life. The cracks and crevices that give texture and a chance to feel something other than smoothness. Makes us human all the more. 

Until then,

Whitney