Dear May: a poem

 

Dear May,

I have been silent. Not with my works, nor my words. But with my energy, where I decide to place my love, and with who I decide to share my hopes and dreams with. I have been just...steady with things. I have continued my hiatus with stepping back and addressing the performative behaviors and comparatively thinking that comes with the nuances of being on social media. The only place where I feel most free is X. I am able to express my thoughts through lines, stanzas, and all people can do is wonder. I like that place. 

I stepped back from recording and scheduling podcast episodes because I wanted to gather my thoughts and publish some heavy content. Content that I can benefit from and my audience will surely enjoying my ramblings. So we move on that! 

In terms of love: I am loving on my family. Focusing on ones who truly have me in mind. I am trying to be a better daughter, sister, and friend. I know I will find true happiness in being authentic in those places, so it is my focus. Love will come and flourish, so I do not worry about the potential challenges that are there. I am patient and also just working on other things. Those who know me know. 

I started reading this book on dreams. I am still processing it, but it has been so handy since I picked it up. Dream recall is stellar, and I am being more intentional about documenting what I see for later. That gift has been evolving since I picked up on things and it has made such a difference in how I perceive things and communicate with God. I have been scolded for sharing too much, but the kicker is I dream CONSTANTLY and there is wisdom and tact in what I share with the world. Some things are meant to marinate before they reach the ears of the world, so do not worry. I am grateful that people do not hesitate to speak to me, I don't ever want to seem like I cannot be corrected. 

God has been giving me the green light on a lot of things, so I am expected for changes in the next coming months. I am glad I closed my ears and eyes to people who would dilute the plans that God has for me, and while it is never fun to isolate yourself from people--it has been pivotal in my development and growth.

So May, that was April's rundown. I don't know what I want to say to you. Things have been harsh--admittingly--but you know me. I wont back down and I wont give up. No, never...

I said that I want to be "Immovable, Un-shakable. Regulated." It will take me some time to get there, but I am still focused. You will be good to me, I have no worries.

All the best,

Whitney