Cutting ties

I can't apologize for being away because it's the only way (I thought) I could cope. But here is my public service announcement. 

In an attempt to regain my voice back, I'm cutting ties. Cutting ties with running after someone's else idea of perfection. Cutting ties with pacifying the flesh of others through my loyalty. Cutting ties with being perceived as the "bad guy". Cutting ties with walking on eggshells and razor blades. 

What was it? It was a friend who told me not feel guilty about pursuing peace. It was a Gospel artist who told me to MOVE out of the way. It was God who told me that I opened up too soon. And I thank Him for it. In the midst of my ignorance and rebellion, God still gave me the warning signs and told me to "RUN. Now is the chance. You've seen what you need to see. Now go, and don't look back."

That I will do. 

After being accountable, I was angry. At everyone and myself. But I chose to forgive and move on. I made the decision to stay committed to the assignment. 

When I look around, I am surrounded by love. Each time I open my eyes, I am reminded that God loves me. It's so apparent. So that's what I will pursue above everything else.

Public service announcement. I'm cutting ties.